Magical Shadow Work

 

This is part 1 of a three part article that is the introduction to Magical Shadow Work and Ordeal XV. I will be writing a book about this ordeal in the future. Here is the basic understanding to this masterful challenge that all adepts must face in their magical and spiritual career. 

Shadow Work is a very popular topic these days and there are lots of books on the subject with a full regimen of practices and journaling. Some of the available online information advise would-be shadow workers to consult with a therapist and not try to do these practices alone. Others take a less intense approach that seems friendly to anyone. Certainly, those who suffer from mental health issues shouldn’t engage with this kind of work, but with the large array of practical applications and books on the subject, it seems like an inviting approach to gaining a full understanding of one’s self. There is almost a kind of New Age sheen to this topic, as it has become very popular over the last decade or two. However, a serious approach to this kind of work does require a solid psychological foundation and an overall healthy mental outlook on life, as well as a degree of openness, courage and self-confidence. Real shadow work is not for the faint hearted nor the superficial devotee of trends.

So, despite the hype and the alluring faddism regarding this practice, it is quite real and represents a true methodology to expose us to our darker selves, showing us an image of ourselves that contains everything that we seem to dislike or repress about ourselves. It also presents us with the means to integrating that shadowy nature back into our conscious selves. The shadow is the part of ourselves that has been displaced from our conscious self and is filled with those characteristics that we have been told by parents and authority figures are bad behaviors, inclinations or impulses. We start out in life without any real shadow, functioning as a whole but severely underdeveloped human being. As we travel through life our parents, teachers, and other authority figures judge our behavior, and encourage those activities that are considered appropriate in social settings and family life, and suppress those that are considered inappropriate or wrong. We grow up learning about the differences between good and evil, and we try, sometimes successfully, sometimes not so much, to adhere to the standard presented to us.

However, the shadow does not just contain those attributes of ourselves that are negative or deemed socially unacceptable. Many people also suppress their creativity or their genius for doing things that are above average so that they might fit in with their peers and avoid rejection. Being too smart, too artistic, too insightful, and too anything will cause individuals to be rejected or not considered one of the peer group. The exceptions are physical beauty or athletic skill, which are more a part of genetics and good fortune than any kind of external social grace or internal reckoning. Being a member of the upper class certainly can make mediocre people into members of the “in crowd,” and avoiding extremes or forms of high excellence will ensure that one is an acceptable and accessible member of the group. Mediocrity is highly acceptable, but exceptionalism in any form has a social cost.

In ancient times people avoided outwardly showing any degree of material success or good fortune to their peers to avoid the effects of jealousy and the “evil eye.” That kind of cautionary behavior has found itself in the present age as well. Most people, therefore, leave behind their personal treasures as well as their potentially bad behavior to be accepted by their peer group and to become a favored and privileged member of their society. All of these qualities end up residing in our shadow, and often we are barely conscious of what we have sacrificed to be an approved member of our social group. We adhere to these standards of social acceptance whether we realize it or not, unless, of course, we perversely seek to break them. 

Some people reject these standards partially or completely while others are incapable of following some or all of them, to their unfortunate social detriment. Those who don’t follow the expected norms are a deviant group where bohemians, revolutionaries, thieves, thugs, murderers, arsonists, and violent terrorists find themselves, but also anyone who is member of the suppressed and despised minorities. Our cultural shadow is like a big carnival tent containing a variety of marginalized or unwanted people. 

As a Witch and ritual magician, I have found myself occasionally accused of being in league with various anarchists and secret cultists, and I am sure that other minorities, whether by racial, religious, gender, or sexual preference biases have found themselves placed in some suspicious group as well. It is easy to judge and condemn whole groups of people, especially those who are powerless to actively defend themselves. It has become a single-minded fad in our current national political culture, where oppressing the supposed “bad” (non-white or abnormal) people is a popular pastime of the recently empowered rightwing bigots, racists, misogynists, and fascists (who call themselves Republicans). One could easily say that America itself has succumbed to its dark shadow side with the activities and beliefs espoused by the current administration and their donor class backers.

This divergent pathway leads to the domain of shadows and the ubiquitous “Other” that represents how societies and cultures determine their own collective shadow. All of this should be included in the study of shadow work because individual shadows are characters that reside within a cultural shadow, and sometimes a person’s shadow whose conscious persona is considered part of the cultural shadow by others, would be solidly and boringly normal, if not also judgmental, racist and bigoted as qualities associated with their shadow self. I think that my own shadow has attributes that would express itself in a racist and misogynist manner while proclaiming to be a conventional and normal Christian man. I still use the names of God and Jesus in vain when perturbed, even though I am a steadfast adherent of Witchcraft. That is something to ponder.

Continuing with this analysis, a criminal might have a lawful and moral shadow, or they might simply be allowing their dark nature to be seen and projected without any kind of filter. What this means is that a person’s shadow is complicated by the culture that they reside in, and it is not really easy to determine the qualities of a person’s shadow. Defining one’s shadow is, therefore, not as simple as putting together a list of the things we detest or fear about ourselves. Our shadow lives in a kind of shadow land, so there is the problem of defining our shadow and the contextual shadow world it resides in. Still, the shadow gives us endless clues, particularly when we project the negative attributes of our shadow on to other people that we intuitively dislike, and project its positive attributes on to those whom we impulsively idolize. 

Everyone who is a mature adult has some kind of dark side or shadow. A person might appear mannerly, gracious, kind, generous and compassionate, but they also have a shadow or dark side that is crass, odious, mean, selfish and indifferent. Unless people have addressed their darker and repressed side of themselves then they will be plagued with moments when their internal darkness leaks out regardless of how good they might appear to others. We all have our less than admirable moments of weakness when we show a side of ourselves that contradicts our assumed persona. Our persona is that which embodies the attributes of our self that we want people to always see. We may believe and insist that we are good people, but this is often only a mask that hides a part of ourselves that is decidedly negative. Our overall selves are complex and contain contradictory attributes, and because we need to present ourselves in some kind of unified manner, we will behave in a way that supports our self-belief and suppresses behavior that goes against how we see ourselves. Our persona is how we want to be seen by others, yet our shadow contains everything that we seek to omit from that self-definition, whether deliberately or unwittingly.

Contradictions and conflicts between the shadow and the persona can tarnish a well-meaning individual with hypocrisy and duplicity when their darker side accidently comes out of hiding. When a person insists that they are unanimously good in all their activities and intentions, they are similarly daring their dark side to come out and show itself at moments of frustration and helplessness. Claiming to be a force for good at all times is as much of a form of self-deceit as it is to claim to be always bad. We are never always one thing or another since we are so complex as individuals. Yet often our darker intentions and impulses will bleed out when we are unaware or when we are imbalanced by misfortune, surprise, moments of personal weakness, or self-doubt. This happens to us when we experience events that trigger a psychic interaction with our shadow, allowing it to briefly emerge. Events that can trigger a psychic inversion where the shadow dominates the self are different for everyone, since they are dependent on our life experiences, our affected persona quality, and our inherent psychological dynamics.

This is the reason why I am dubious at the claims of would-be spiritual teachers or political leaders who can do no wrong, and supposedly high-minded New Age folks who espouse to be exclusively white light practitioners of love, bliss and peace; since it is more likely that their shadow is darker than normal, and when it comes out, their followers are very shocked. It is for this reason that I see a parallel of the shadow with the theme of the Picture of Dorian Grey. Except in this case, the picture shows what we truly look like as adults while looking through a dark, obsidian mirror. It doesn’t matter how good a person we think we are, or how nicely we have behaved over our lifetime, when all that we have repressed has painted a picture of ourselves that we would find loathsome and despicable. That, in a word, is the dark trick played on those people who think that they are predominately or exclusively good. It is also why I tend avoid people who pretentiously idolize their own supposed goodness. It just rings fake and hollow in my mind. Even someone who is balanced and seemingly normal can be thrown off by the wiles of their shadow.

When I talk about the religious aspects of Witchcraft, I speak of the powers of light and darkness, not just light. There is a polarity in Witchcraft, both from a magical energy perspective and a theological perspective. There is no absolute light or darkness, but they take turns and work together to formulate the world we live in. The cycle of night and day, winter and summer and the points in transition between them are a natural representation of this interaction of light and darkness. From this point of view, there is no white or black magic, there is no good or evil. There is only our intent and our desire, our vector in life, and the consequence of our actions. This resonates both through our persona and our shadow. They are fully integrated into our magic and religion as two opposites that have a common source - the One. Thus, Witchcraft as a religion admits that there is a dark attribute to all conscious beings, preparing and opening us to experience the interplay of light and darkness, in nature, people and society, and in ourselves. Of course, light and darkness also represent life and death, and because most people fear death in some manner, then death itself, especially the death of the ego and the persona that we carry, is also an attribute of our shadow.

Liminal states can be found where the shadow and persona touch and meet, and it is here where habits and addictions reside that can pose health problems and self-destructive behavior, which is dimly conscious and yet still active. People can inform us that we have a drinking or drug problem or some other kind of socially unacceptable health issue, and typically we will deny that it is a problem until we fully realize it, often at the nadir of its effects on us. Conversely, we can find ourselves living an empty life that momentarily becomes filled with inspiration and joy, fueled by our repressed creativity or excellence, only to have it quickly depart when we recognize that we are engaging in something that we have deemed to be unacceptable about ourselves. The place between light and darkness, the persona and the shadow, is also the place of true religion, magic, and mystery. It is a place of twilight, marked by the intersection of the spheres of light and darkness, symbolically making a convex and concave joining of crescent shapes, combining together to formulate the archetypal image of the Vesica Pisces. This shape represents the mystery of the unified Self and the place between light and darkness.

This domain of twilight is the place where our dreams become powerful instruments of instruction and inspiration, if we are brave enough to open ourselves to that in-between state. In the shadow land are mysteries, magical powers, devils, demons, monsters and the host of the underworld. Yet there are also the various embodiments of Deity, Gods, Goddesses, Angels, ancestor spirits, heroes and heroines, and the ghost roads that interconnect them into a singularity. It is through the gateway of the twilight world that we can meet and gain inspiration through our exposure to that secret place.

It would seem to us that there is mostly a stasis or equilibrium between the darkness and light in our personality, and that would be true if we were not dynamic beings. Yet it just as often seems as if the darkness and light are at war within our psyche, and our ego-based persona seeks to maintain its dominance to keep the denizens of the darkness at bay. Yet often there are leakages and times when the darkness surprises us or even overcomes us, either momentarily or sometimes permanently, as in cases of mental collapse. Any perceived balance is either a deceptive illusion or the calm before the storm.

However, it is our closed attitude to the darkness within us that is the cause of our sufferings and problems. We constantly place an insoluble border between our shadow and our outward persona, but that doesn’t need to occur. If we understand that our inner psychic polarity can be mitigated by relaxing our borders between light and darkness, and eliminating our inner governing self-judgment, then we will realize that this polarity is nothing more than opposing or conflicting beliefs and ideas about ourselves and our world which are ultimately illusory. This is because our own personality, both the light and darkness, exist in a perpetual state of paradox. To accept this internal paradox is to realize the mystery of ourselves and the mystery of all human beings. 

This state of mindful self-acceptance is also the most important first step of initiatory transformation, since we must enter into our shadow land and confront our individual shadow to undergo the process where we are made whole and spiritually complete. I have written books on the subject of transformative initiation, but the shadow and our inner underworld are the primary keys to spiritual enlightenment, only requiring one additional personality. 

Frater Barrabbas